30 October, 2013

I haven't posted on here in a really long time.  I am sorry!  The few followers that I had probably don't follow me anymore.  I originally made this blog so that I could post all of my Halloween Costume Ideas (which is still my most visited blog post).  Since Halloween is coming up tomorrow, that first post was almost exactly three years ago, so I thought it would be fitting to post something today!  It's not about Halloween costumes, unfortunately, but something else that is on my mind and I want to share.

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I saw this video today on Facebook, and it's really on my heart to write about it.  I think I remember seeing this or something similar a few years ago, so this might have been around for a while, but I want to talk about it a little bit.  Watching this made me feel so sad and a little sick.  It really puts into perspective the impossible expectation that the media puts on women to look a certain way.  I think that this is so important for everyone to watch, because it shows us that the standard of beauty that our society has is impossible to attain.

I hear so many women calling themselves ugly and fat, and it breaks my heart every time I hear it.  I work at a bridal shop selling wedding dresses, and this is pretty much what I hear all day.  I will help a bride try on numerous dresses until we find the one that's perfect for her, and even when she looks absolutely gorgeous, she will say something like, "I'm so fat, this dress will look better if I lose 20 pounds."  And I'm like "Are you kidding?  You look perfect."

I understand this desire to look perfect, I think every girl does.  I think that the first time I thought about my weight in a negative way was when I was in the 5th grade.  At 10 years old I didn't want to wear shorts to school because I thought my legs were fat.  As I got older, this feeling of inadequacy and never being pretty or thin enough got worse, and while I think I'm in a better place now, I still struggle with these feelings sometimes.  I think it's made worse when I am consuming too much media rather than focusing on God.  I forget that my identity and value are in Christ and not in my outward appearance.

Don't get me wrong, I know that it is important to be healthy, and I understand that weight can be an issue that affects health.  My concern is that we tie up our beauty and our self worth with our body image, which I don't think should be the case.  If you want to lose weight for your health, awesome; I'm all for that.  But I wish people's motivation would be that they want to make themselves healthier, not that they want to live up to this impossible standard of beauty.  Whether you have a weight problem or not, you're still beautiful.  Your weight shouldn't define your beauty.

I know that everything that I'm writing right now has probably been written before and that it's not particularly profound, but it is still very important to me.  This is a topic that has been on my heart for quite a while, and I have been wondering what I can do to make a difference.  I don't really have a solution, but I think that on an individual level, it is very important for us to stop expressing negative thoughts about ourselves to others, because that just reinforces our own negativity towards our bodies but I think it also rubs off on other women.  If we want others to feel beautiful, we need to stop talking about how ugly and fat we feel.  The attitude really just puts emphasis and importance on the wrong things, and this attitude is definitely something that I want to work on.

03 September, 2011

Indian Cove


"If you are really a product of a materialistic universe, how is it that you don't feel at home there?" -C.S. Lewis

This quote is just something to think about.

This is what I wore today. I went around town with my brother's fiance and helped her do various wedding-related errands. Their wedding is in exactly 1 week! Now I have to go paint.

02 September, 2011

The Last Unicorn





Butterfly, butterfly, where shall I hide?” he sang in the fading light. “The sweet and bitter fool will presently appear. Christ, that my love were in my arms, and I in my bed again.” He rested on the unicorn’s horn once more, and she could feel him trembling.

“Please,” she said. “All I want to know is that there are other unicorns somewhere in the world. Butterfly, tell me that there are still others like me, and I will believe you and go home to my forest. I have been away so long, and I said that I would come back soon.”

Over the mountains of the moon,” the butterfly began, “down the Valley of Shadow, ride, boldly ride.” Then he stopped suddenly and said in a strange voice, “No, no, listen, don’t listen to me, listen. You can find your people if you are brave. They passed down all the roads long ago, and the Red Bull ran close behind them and covered their footprints. Let nothing you dismay, but don’t be half-safe.” His wings brushed against the unicorn’s skin.

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This is a passage from The Last Unicorn, a book I am reading right now. It's the most beautifully written book.

27 August, 2011

San Gorgonio

Hiked San Gorgonio with my brother a few days ago. I'm still sore from it. It's the highest peak in Southern California (but not super high at 11,500 ft). We started at about a 6,000 ft elevation and the trail that we took was 8.6 miles to the summit. It was a beautiful hike on the way up; on the way back I just wanted it to be over.

We found this sign in an ammo box at the top but it said like Aug. 20 so I changed the date to the day we hiked it.


I have now done yoga at the highest point in Southern California.


I found this book at the top. People sign in when they get up there. One thing said "everyone who gets up here are kings and queens of the wild!" It made me feel really cool! Our names are at the bottom of this page. My fingernails are really dirty in this picture!



Ents.

Lotr


In other news, I have been in Colorado for the Summer; I just got back like 2 weeks ago. I was working at a Summer camp as a wilderness counselor. I took kids backpacking and hiking and rockclimbing and stuff like that. It was really awesome and I got to do a lot of amazing things. A lot of times I thought to myself "I can't believe I'm getting paid for this!"

I tried to keep a diary of the summer so that I wouldn't forget anything, and at the beginning I was pretty good at it, but towards the end I didn't really write in it very often. Maybe I will post some of the stuff I wrote on here eventually.

03 June, 2011

pictures i like















These are just some pictures from Andrea's computer that I like. She's a good photographer. I started to post this a long time ago and I never finished for some reason.

14 May, 2011

It's been a while

My cousin Andrea and I went to Arizona last weekend. We had a grand time. I got yelled at by some old lady for getting too close to the edge at the Grand Canyon.



Kokopeli




Andrea in front of Montezuma's Castle.



Flinstone's land


Sedona







09 February, 2011

i need to sleeeeep

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. If you care. Haha how many people even read this?

This is an outfit that I haven't worn out of the house, I just try on clothes and take pictures of myself sometimes haha. I would like to wear it, but I need to wait until the weekend or something because I can't wear these shorts to work.

You can kind of see how messy my bedroom is in this picture. This is what happens when I try on clothes. I throw all the discards all over the place. It takes seconds to do but hours to clean up.

I've been busy and stressed lately? I mailed my Peace Corps medical stuff today and that was the last thing that I needed to send them, so now I just have to sit and wait for them to put me somewhere (if I get approved). I've been quietly freaking out about it all day. I feel like I'm never home. I don't have time to do things because I overfill my schedule, I think. I know people with way fuller schedules than me though. I don't know how they do it!

I've been drinking a lot of wine lately. Let me rephrase that, I haven't been drinking a lot, maybe like a glass a night. It makes me feel healthy and fancy. I've been drinking mostly red wine because I think it has more antioxidants, right? I don't really know. I've also been trying to take vitamins and drink more water and to go hiking and stuff more. And I've been trying to read more substantial material. I'm on a "bettering myself" kick or something.

I haven't played my guitar or banjo in a while. But I hula hooped the other day. I've got to keep some of my hobbies going! I wish I had more time to do the things that I want to do.

This is reading like a diary. Weird.

11 January, 2011

little wing





Yesterday's outfit. Gonna be late for work, lol. I know like 4 other people that have these boots! but theirs are all brown and mine are black. I like the brown ones better. Got this crocheted thing at the thrift store a few months ago. On my birthday, actually. It's one of my favorite things that I have.

Gota go!